i don't like doing this but i have to write something.
i can't write it in my journal because my hands keep cramping up i'm writing so much.
i just...i need to talk about this. with you.
i need to not do it in person.
i'll feel like a fool inperson.
but i won't see you until we talk.
not see you like that anyway.
i just...can't.
there's reasons.
but overall it comes down to me not wanting to.
something you should understand.
at least, you used to.
i don't know what it'll lead to.
but i can't keep pushing it off like i have been.
it's getting me no where.
it's just making it that much worse everytime.
i'm not doing it to be mean.
we talked about it before and i just...
i don't see where you could have forgotten it.
it was a very meaningful conversation.
i remember exactly where we we.
when it was.
how it all happened.
how shocked you were at the other part.
the other part i don't care about.
it's this little part that's a no.
this part that i don't think is good.
like i said.
i don't know what this will lead to.
but we need to talk about it.
now.
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